Sisters, I value your input & this is only open to a select few of you.....and my apologies for the scattered thoughts as they are all over the place at the moment.
While I really do love this man, I have to let him go...at least for a little while. We've had a pretty decent relationship considering we're both pretty stubborn & outspoken. We've had our ups & downs but nothing we couldn't get past. Sometimes it was hard because I'm an admitted grudge-carrier and he's the exact opposite. You piss me off and I'll ignore you for days. Piss him off at noon and he'll be wanting to cuddle by 2pm.
We had an issue Superbowl Sunday & it got outta hand. There was no violence, but if looks could kill... Anyway, a chain of events was triggered (I may come & fill in the blanks later) and things haven't been right since.
Earlier this week we got into a heated argument that ended with him destroying some things his money did not pay for and in turn I had to call the police. I was in total shock by his behavior! Even tho we argue, he's never got violent. Since the damage he caused to my property was over $1,000, a felony warrant was issued for his arrest.
Keep in mind, this man is my cousin's bro-in-law and I've gotten to know his family pretty well over the last year. They all were genuinely happy about our relationship.
So, after I called the cops, I called his mother, aunt & 2 brothers. Like me, they were in disbelief, but never questioned my honesty about what he did. They knew it was true. His brother even drove almost 200 miles the next day to come & get him but they couldn't find him.
A few days went past and I didn't hear from him. Then I start to receive "restricted" calls on my cell. (I have Privacy Manager on my landline.) I answered a few times & he just held the phone. I called my family & friends so they would know what was happening.....just in case. His family would call everyday to be sure I was OK as he was not responding to their calls.
Late Saturday night, he calls and begs me not to hang up and to hear him out. It was about 2:30 am and even tho I was/am still pissed, I was not in the mood cuss a negro out. He apologized & admitted his rage was fueled by alcohol and I told him he needed to go home (his aunt works in the mental health field) & get some professional help, as he was out of control. Surprisingly, he knew I was right. I later found out that his brother urged him to call me and apologize even if it got him cussed the hell out.
He goes on to tell me how he cannot believe he fucked the best thing that's ever happened to him (i.e. me) and how his family is livid with him about what he did to me. He didn't want to face his family because he was/is ashamed & embarrassed about the damage he caused.
I found out today that his aunt is sending him away to an alcohol treatment program (thank you Lord!). Shortly after I got that news, I got another apology voicemail and a request that I be there when he leaves.
Even tho I'm still pissed about the aggravation this whole event has caused, I still want him to get help & get better. He's a good man, with a heart of gold, he just needs to sever the relationship with the liquor.
I'm still undecided about being there when he leaves, as I know people in his shoes need all the support they can get. However, I am not dropping those charges until I get restitution, paid in full, plus some.
If you love and care about him, I say stand by his side, and offer him the support that he needs, in doing so doesn't mean that you need to drop any charges, stand firm on that...
ReplyDeleteThe fact that he called you (even if pressured) and owned up to his bullshit plus has decided for himself that he has hit his own rock bottom so much so as to get help is a plus. Give him the support he needs, however, make sure he is CLEAR that his going clean is not necessarily a condition for getting back with him. You dont want his going clean being dependent upon a relationship with you because THAT will lead for disaster.
ReplyDeleteHe acknowledged he has a problem, and is willing to get help. I'm going to be 1,000 % honest with you, not sure I would want to continue a relationship, romantic one with him after this, but I would be supportive simply because he needs that. I do agree however, do NOT drop the charges until he pays you what he owes for your destroyed property.
ReplyDeleteFeeling what sistahgurl said, his going for help is NOT a condition of you going back to him. That's for HIM to get help and truly change.
ok big sis, you know i err on the side of love....i see you alls points, and i have to wonder. has there been a drunken rage before?
ReplyDeleteyou said you loved him...so whats more important? the "things" or the love?
I have to agree with Sistahgurl. I'd agree to a friendship at the mostl unless you feel it in your spirit to do otherwise. As far as the charges, I'd hold fast to that. He should pay.
ReplyDeletedamn, she makes a valid point...
ReplyDeleteIf he loves her, he shouldn't have a problem with paying for the things he damaged...and should understand why she took the measures she did.
ReplyDeleteThat being said, yall are both invested emotionally...and I think you should be there for him, eventhough that doesn't guarentee a future romantic relationship. Now isn't even the time to discuss all thatn I don't think. Just deal with his treatment...and pray about the rest...
*hug*
*whisperin* Gina gives gooood advice!
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ReplyDeleteSee this is why I love y'all!!
ReplyDeleteHis older brother just got his one year sobriety chip. He was the 1st person I called. At first, I wasn't sure what drove him to this insanity, but big bro knew his baby brother had finally lost it due to the alcohol. I was never around him when he was drinking, because I don't drink like that.
I just got off the phone with him & he knows he crossed the line & {I believe} is torn up about it. He admitted he hit bottom & knows he can't do it alone, needs help & change.
My mother's common law hubby (who physically abused her) and my gramps (never violent) were both alcoholics so I've seen what it does to people 1st hand. I certainly don't want to turn my back on him when he probably needs me the most. I might be singing a different tune had he put his hands on me.
PS You will never know what your sisterhood (real and/or cyber) means to me!
Never! That's why I was taken aback when he snapped and damaged my property. He likes to talk, ALOT after he's been drinking but that's it.
ReplyDeleteThank you T! I didn't mention the charges, but he knows what he did & he knows the cops were here. He has to pay for what he did.
ReplyDeleteYeah, you would have given your statement about why you split his head to the white meat to the police right before you filed your property damage chargers, turned on a dime and not looked back...
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I did. I repeatedly told him, this has to be for him, as if I were never in the picture. He appears to understand & just asked that I don't give up on him.
ReplyDeletei'm curious... what does your "heart" tell you? and what does your "gut" tell you?
ReplyDeleteMo, I am going to be there for YOU for moral support, if you need to holla you have my number, his behavior scares the bejesus out of me, I've been there and done that and that is the one deal breaker in my life. Pray on it, do what your heart tells you to do, and I will pray for you too.....I don't want to give you advice because mine would be to keep a baseball bat in erry corner of the house.....and I'm really trying to be a "kinder, gentler" Dawn so pray for me. I don't like that breaking of shit(especially shit I work for)and I definitely hate drinking without control(my late great aunt was an alcoholic and it was hard for me being a small child being called a black bitch everytime she was drunk)needless to say when she passed I never shed a tear....so you see why I have no tolerance. Keep your head up, nothing wrong with saying "good luck" with his treatment. Remember he needs to clean up for himself.....and those 12 steps are hard ones.
ReplyDeleteMy heart is saying "don't give up on a brother" and my gut is saying "keep the switchblade close"....but my gut has always said that about men.
ReplyDeleteThanks D! That means a lot to me. You do know I keep that metal bat by my bed right? Right!
ReplyDeletein my brain are you?
ReplyDeleteAgreeing with Gina.... *hugs*
ReplyDeleteMonni, no matter what you decide, I will always be there for you!!
ReplyDeleteThat type of sudden behavior of an Unstable Creature scares me and I've dealt with it as well. I've never had anything destroyed nor myself but the RAGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGEEEEEEEEEE is what I can't handle. In my situation they are just plain angry and don't know how to deal with those feelings. I do not blame you for taking the stance you have taken and I know you are the nip it before it's a problem type of person. He needs love.....From a distance. If after he gets treatment and you feel different then go with your feelings. You also have the number.
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ReplyDeleteHe's in treatment y'all. The devil was busy yesterday but I punched that sapsucka in the face & pushed him behind me!
ReplyDeleteIt started with Hawk (aka Boyfriend 2.0) ripping & running trying to take of business & tie up loose ends. The end result was that his missed his ride to the center (a 2 hour drive away) and got discouraged. I got wind of the situation & told him to bring his ass! I went to pick him up, we talked (a very long talk), "got busy" (I'm so ashamed) and at 6:45 pm we were on our way. Mind you, I had kids to feed, homework to do, etc. We managed to handle all of this from the comforts of the Malibu.
The kids fell asleep so we had some private talk time, which I think was good for us both. I encouraged him to do what was in his best interest and that as long as he stayed on the straight & narrow, I'd be there.
When we made it to our destination (his brother lives in the same city) I was tired as hell and he didn't want me to leave. I was going to attempt the drive back (he drove there), but with the help of his sister-in-law, I was sweet-talked into spending the night. I have to admit, I enjoyed just snuggling & sleeping with him. I didn't realize how much I missed it.
My alarm went off at 5:00 am (I already knew the youngins would be late for school & I would be late for work (not like I'm ever on time anyway), but I think he's worth it.
He gave me his cell, keys & other vital items to bring home since he's in confinement for 7 days (no calls or visitors). We said our goodbyes, said a prayer & I hit the road.
He called me a few times while I was on the road & I could tell he was getting anxious. He said he loved me for the gazillionth time & I replied with, "Fuck that! Pay me!" We both started to CTFU.
I will continue to pray for his healing & recovery.
Monni you have a great big ole heart with a tough exterior. Hugs I love you sis. BTW you are not ashamed ifn you were you would have left that part out.
ReplyDeleteI hope this all works out for him.
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