I have some family crap going on that's weighing on me heavily. All I seem to do lately is bitch & moan. However, I promised myself long ago that every time I seemed to dwell a little to long on the bitching & moaning, I'd remind myself of the reasons I have to be happy & thankful.
I was bitching & moaning about my 6 year old furnace going out & coughing up $309 to pay for repair. I reminded myself that many of my sisters & brothers have no place to call home & certainly don't have a furnace to go out. I reminded myself that many of my sisters & brothers who have homes might not have had the cash to pay for repairs and suffered/are suffering thru the cold.
I was bitching & moaning about niggas, yes niggas, trying to steal my car. I reminded myself that many are walking in the rough winter elements and/or catching 2/3 buses one-way just to reach their destination.
I was bitching & moaning about not being able to stay on my weight loss program. I reminded myself that while I do need to shed these lbs, I haven't missed nary a meal, while many are hungry.
I was bitching & moaning about my son begging for money & doing stupid teenage boy crap. I reminded myself that many young mothers are visiting the graves of their young sons.
I was bitching & moaning about these damn silverfish, this carpet that so desperately needs a deep cleaning & these walls that need painting. I reminded myself that I live like a queen compared to some.
I was bitching & moaning about my sister leaving her children at my house. I reminded myself that many of these young women leave their children with anydamnbody and these people are doing only God knows what to these innocent children.
I was bitching & moaning about those uber-needy ass people at my office. I reminded myself that "the man" pays me a decent salary to tend to these folks, while many are unemployed.
I was crying & missing my daddy. I reminded myself that my daddy loved me & provided for me beyond his grave, while many have no idea who and/or where their fathers are.
I was crying & missing my mama & granny. I reminded myself that I had them for almost 3 decades, while many young women never had a mama or granny in their lives.
I'm crying now as I write this, because sometimes I have to see it in black & white to remind myself of just how fortunate I am.