I have some family crap going on that's weighing on me heavily. All I seem to do lately is bitch & moan. However, I promised myself long ago that every time I seemed to dwell a little to long on the bitching & moaning, I'd remind myself of the reasons I have to be happy & thankful.
I was bitching & moaning about my 6 year old furnace going out & coughing up $309 to pay for repair. I reminded myself that many of my sisters & brothers have no place to call home & certainly don't have a furnace to go out. I reminded myself that many of my sisters & brothers who have homes might not have had the cash to pay for repairs and suffered/are suffering thru the cold.
I was bitching & moaning about niggas, yes niggas, trying to steal my car. I reminded myself that many are walking in the rough winter elements and/or catching 2/3 buses one-way just to reach their destination.
I was bitching & moaning about not being able to stay on my weight loss program. I reminded myself that while I do need to shed these lbs, I haven't missed nary a meal, while many are hungry.
I was bitching & moaning about my son begging for money & doing stupid teenage boy crap. I reminded myself that many young mothers are visiting the graves of their young sons.
I was bitching & moaning about these damn silverfish, this carpet that so desperately needs a deep cleaning & these walls that need painting. I reminded myself that I live like a queen compared to some.
I was bitching & moaning about my sister leaving her children at my house. I reminded myself that many of these young women leave their children with anydamnbody and these people are doing only God knows what to these innocent children.
I was bitching & moaning about those uber-needy ass people at my office. I reminded myself that "the man" pays me a decent salary to tend to these folks, while many are unemployed.
I was crying & missing my daddy. I reminded myself that my daddy loved me & provided for me beyond his grave, while many have no idea who and/or where their fathers are.
I was crying & missing my mama & granny. I reminded myself that I had them for almost 3 decades, while many young women never had a mama or granny in their lives.
I'm crying now as I write this, because sometimes I have to see it in black & white to remind myself of just how fortunate I am.
**HUGS**
ReplyDeleteAlso, don't forget that God loves you and wants you to lean on him during the rough times. Cast your worries, doubts, hurts, & angers on his big shoulders. Remembering your blessings put things in a different perspective. I have to do the same thing when I am going through a rough moment. I am here for you if you need me.
**Rocking Monni and patting her weave**
*Just want to make you smile :)*
Amen. I have to go through the same reminders. You are not alone.
ReplyDeleteIf that ain't the truth!
ReplyDeleteThings could always be worse. Gotta be thankful nonetheless.
Things are so trivial. We really need to stop giving power to such frivolous things. Amen!
P.S. ... Those silverfish are driving me up a damn wall too. Shoot!
Girl.... I've said it before and I've said it again... while my life is far from perfect there are plenty of folks who would gladly trade places to have my problems...
ReplyDelete(((big hugs))) (and don't feel bad - I slept maybe three hours tonight because there's another mouse doing aerials off my bannister and on my living room CURTAINS)
That's beautiful. Thanks for sharing.
ReplyDeleteaawwww honey So much reality in your blog and I think we all do forget and need reminders like these to get us through these days. Thanks for the reminder and for sharing. Have a very great Wednesday and NO bitching and moaning today...LOL God Bless hon!
ReplyDelete*hugs to my play cousin*
ReplyDeleteBut ummm, what's the deal with the silverfish?
You got me over here sobbing... thank you for this lil reminder... I've found myself complaining about things lately that I have no damn reason to be complaining about... It is so easy to get lost in one's self and thinking about only whats going on with you to the point that we forget that there is someone out there that is so much worse off than us...
ReplyDeleteI know that this is your spot and I respect that... but I was sitting here reading your post and it got me to thinking about this woman that I work with. She is seriously losing her collective shit right now.. I know that in the past she was on drugs and said that she received help for that and I do know that she was an avid drinker.. And lately she has been a bit more irritating, you cant ask her a question without her getting loud or losing it.. In the past 3 years we have lost nearly 5 employees because she cant seem to work with anybody and they just end up quitting.. Well, I think she has gotten back on one of the dependencies because she has been being a real bitch... (Please excuse the language).. My boss wont fire her because he knows she can be better, and I think to an extent she's all alone, so he feels bad or sorry so he wont let me fire her either... but anyway, I've had my spats with her, tried going around her and even to the point of acting as if she doesn't exist, but how effective is that when I have supervise her... OMG ... I'm at my wits end, I cant bad mouth her cuz that doesn't help and that's not the type of person I am anyway.. So, I just decided instead of being an ass about the situation and making her and my life here a living hell, why not do the Christian thing to do.. I prayed for her... Some folks would have said fuck it and fuck her and that's it... But for some reason, well not some reason... but the Bible says: ...Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, (Matthew 5:44 (New International Version).. And that's what I did...And thank God that she has been ok in her attitude for a lil while now...
So, I guess my testimony today is that despite all my complaining about her and how she was causing this department to falter and being a complete ass with everyone,,, Initially I didn't try to see past the employee relationship and see her as another human being with maybe some more serious problems than I will ever encounter. She has very limited family and she keeps off to herself and that I'm not trying to change but I figured if i couldn't do anything but pray for her then that should be more than sufficient and i thank God for obviously putting something down in her because she has been ok. And i thank you for this post because I too have to be reminded that I live in a warm house, with a full refrigerator, clothes on my back and money in the bank... God is good...
You said a mouthful. I try to remember to count the blessings when I'm feeling low. Often the good overtakes the bad. Stay up, beautiful lady!
ReplyDeleteYou are sooooooooo lucky I call you friend! *hugs*
ReplyDeleteIf I wasn't afraid I'd burn my house down, I'd take a blow torch to these lil fukkas. They're always in out of reach places.
ReplyDeleteI saw your tag before I logged off. Them lil rodents loves them some Silky, don't they?! I've got faith in Boots! :o) She'll earn her keep.
ReplyDeleteThey're more of a damn nuisance than anything.
ReplyDeleteYou funny!! As much as I cuss, why would I, of all people be offended?? :o)
ReplyDeleteDoes your company have an EAP program? A manager can make seeking help mandatory. Some are stand alone providers & some insurance carriers like Blue Cross & UnitedHealthcare offer programs.
The thing is... right now, at least the way I feel its more about trying to help her... My dang on momma instilled in me and my sisters to always try and help.. And for some reason God hasn't told me to make that administrative move yet... And know some people are sitting here thinking, this aint about religion its about business, but I was a Christian first before an employee.. Im just gonna play this one out for a lil bit first. I just know that if I was fallen on hard times maybe someone would be less critical and maybe a bit more compassionate.. My company is small in terms of in-house employees (maybe 15 or so), but our distribution and service is large. But with such a small group everyone knows everyone and everything going on... And so quick to pass judgement on another... So, in short, Im just waiting on the right move... I know she can better, but I hate to kick somebody when they're down...
ReplyDeletelmao.... thats probably why I wont make manager of the year... Im too damn soft...
Lots of hugs Monni
ReplyDeleteYes sista girl, I now find myself putting things into perspective like you did and once you realize how blessed you really are, it takes over you. Be blessed.
ReplyDeleteYou are very fortunate Mo! Do whatever you need to do to remind yourself!!!
ReplyDeleteGirl I never knew my dad so you are fortunate to be able to miss yours.....You can't miss what you never had. Even tho I am on dialysis I have several reasons to be thankful. I thank god everytime I get off that machine on my own accord. I thank him for being able to hold down a fulltime job and pay my own bills. We have to focus on our "haves" and pay less attention to the "have nots" because there is someone in the world who would kill to have what we have.
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