I'm not looking for a pity party, just releasing....
Saturday, I attended a home-going service for my BFF's grandmother. Afterwards, I went to my mother & sister's grave and had a good long cry with my 2 BFF's right by my side. {Boyfriend wanted to go, but he can't stand to see Superwoman cry so I told him I had who I needed and would be OK....and I was.}
I've lost way too many people I love in this 10 day span of the calendar, including but not limited to: my daddy, mother, sister, a boyfriend, an aunt, an uncle and grandmother (the last 3 were not my blood-my BFF's-but they were my family all the same).
I did some shopping for gifts today hoping it would lift my spirits, but I guess my spirit just ain't feeling it.
Next December, good Lord willing & the creek don't rise, I'll be on somebody's all-inclusive resort or cruise ship.
*big ass hug*
ReplyDelete*sliding u my favorite shot glass and my BIG bottle of Patron* ((hugs))
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ReplyDeleteDecember is not a joyful month for me either. Granted, its not for the exact same reason, but in some ways I can relate. Luv ya! **hugs**
ReplyDeleteYou gone be alright sis... *hugs*
ReplyDeleteThis time of year has always been hard for me since my momma died, she and I always did our Christmas shopping together, we were the only humans that could leave at 7am in the morning and not return until 11pm(neither of us drove either lol, we were all over tho)My last memory of her was in ICU, that year she was bugging me about what I wanted for Christmas....she had me mail her cards and she had me buy sam a nintendo(I think she knew she wouldn't be with us)I cannot hear the Temptations sing Silent Night without bawling because that was my momma's song. My last Christmas with her was spent in ICU my daughter and I holding her hand and looking at the pleading in her eyes....I haven't had a good holiday since then and I used to love this time of year. I just want it to be over.
ReplyDeleteI definitely can understand. A friend of ours here lost her father a few days before Thanksgiving, and we attended the funeral. Less than thirty days later, her mother passed, and we went to that funeral as well. We can't even begin to imagine what she's feeling.
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ReplyDelete*just a hug from me & figi*
ReplyDeleteMonni B as always my friend, I have you in my prayers and The Lord will comfort you. He's Faithful if nobody else is HE is! It may seem hard to find anything to rejoice about in this month for you but if you can find one thing to rejoice in Him about do it! I'm just gonna share this little scripture with you (one of my fav's) and it's ALL true. Phillipians 4:4-7 4Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! 5Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. 6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Love you! Merry Christmas Grouchy ;-)
ReplyDelete(((((((HUGS))))))) Next December I pray you'll be on top of the world!
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