When I was little I had dreams of creating a beauty product & making a kazillion (you heard me right, a kazillion) dollars, having a huge fairytale wedding, 2 kids, living in a big white house on a hill, having the same house on the same land for my parents & grandparents & I was gonna do all of this before I was old & grey.....ya know....like 30!
Well things didn't work out quite like I planned. My daddy died, leaving my mother a widow & me a fatherless child. As a result (at least in my opinion) I became a teen mother. I finished high school on time & with my class, ranking 6th in my class I might add.
I got my 1st real job during my senior year & have worked every since. After HS, I had a job, entered college & everything changed. Trying to work, attend school & care for a toddler was a bit more than I bargained for. I couldn't quit working, I had Pampers to buy. I couldn't send my baby back, he was here to stay. Needless to say, my studies suffered & after a year & a half, I just gave up. I could kick myself for that one! Outside of having sex too soon, that was the biggest mistake I've ever made.
Even though my parents and grandparents have gone home to glory, I am, however, grateful! I have been blessed with a career (I worked my way up) that I enjoy. I don't have the big house on the hill, but my lil townhouse is more than enough. I only have 1 kid, as they say He gives you no more than you can bear. {This boy is giving me the blues!! That's another story for another day.} I still don't have my prince.....still kissing these damn frogs! My wedding dress is still on layaway (been there since 1995! j/k...or am I??).
I won't complain.....I am happy (most of the time), healthy (a sista ain't missing no meals) and when I really think about, I live like a damn queen compared to some people.
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